0300 They call this feeling “grief.” Don't fight the beast. It will consume you; let it. Don't resist. Then, once you are inside, it will digest you. It will break you down. It will absorb your nutrients, your fibers, and your bones. Then, it will shit you out. Then, you’ll be free, and back into … Continue reading 12162021
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2200 I just made up this word: “jannatic.” It means “Like Paradise,” or “Heaven-like,” because the word in Arabic for “Paradise” is “Jannah,” then the English suffix “-ic.” I like it. I’ll be using it sometime. A corporation is not a person. How did any of us fall for such a thing? “Corporate personhood.” Can … Continue reading 12132021
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1159 See that wind last night. I mean, tonight. Fifteen Thousand Angels down the hall, Seven on the roof, and Twenty-Five are holding back the chimney from the wind. And in the trees, the wiggling demons dance and howl vaulting curses so perverse that bushes bend away revoltedly. O Western Wind—Tsunami of the Sky, O … Continue reading 12112021
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Love is not supposed to be this difficult. 2100 You won’t believe me, but I tried to be the person that you wanted me to be. I tried to be your happily ever after, honestly. But sometimes it becomes too hard to try. Sometimes I sit and wonder if it matters. What matters is that … Continue reading 12092021
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1200 Destruction is not hard, but to Create takes COURAGE. So, whenever they destroy, we must create again. We call that LOVE. When they destroy again, then that is when we shall create their Devastation. That is what we mean by “justice.” That is GOD. Have COURAGE. For the LOVE of GOD, Create.
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1800 My God, a week. It’s only been a week. The problem is, you do not understand, and never will, and never dared to try. We made it. Now, we have a house and dog. And now, we have a Christmas tree. And now, we have a brand new Bentley, and, because the neighbors don’t, … Continue reading 12072021
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0300 There is an itchy man beneath my bed. He itches and he scratches and he peels. I tell him that he shouldn’t scratch so much, but he replies, “I rather like the itch. An itch is just a tickle, is it not?”
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0000 He gleams. Tonight, he comes to us in green. Tonight, he is the worst I’ve ever seen. His Name’s GOMHILTRA. Look! You cannot know what is Unseen until you See it first! And so, until we Wake, we’ll fill our blogs, and walk our dogs, and listen to our boss. 0200 I hear you … Continue reading 12042021
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2020 “I love you, but I never told you so.” Now, listen there: that music's much too loud. I cannot hear the silence in the house. I hear all that commotion from beyond these brand new padded windows, all in white. It carries me along: an orchestra of violence and howling in the night. Be … Continue reading 12032021
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1800 What’s wrong with us? Why do we treat each other this way? I think it’s very strange. We’re distant from our closest ones, and close entirely to strangers. What a world. “Fitting the criteria,” she says. “Fitting your criteria. How I try to show you that I value what you think. And yet, it … Continue reading 11262021